Monday, July 23, 2012

When the earth began to crumble... And my hopes began to fade

Saturday, May 12, 2012

If I say..
Would you stay?
Would you hold on for another time?
Is this fading slowly?
You moving away one step at a time?
Puffed eyes and a throbbing pain
Floating through uncertainty everyday
Are you still there?
Where I can touch you 
When I stretch out my arms.
Have you moved on?
So abruptly?
Blocking away all the possibilities with force.

When minutes turn into hours
When the cell phone stops blinking
I know you wouldn't miss my name flashing on your cell.
There will be people far more important
Knocking every other second
A new favourite contact to buzz all over again

And before so long 
I shall be a dot to you 
Pressing hard to find on the horizon
Sitting on the rocks with a new set of fingers
The yellow cab won't flash in your mind
A faceless name left in the corner of your life...

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Distant Dream

Could these be our final few moments?
Before you leave for a new journey.
Never to look back..
Could I really loose you in this madness?
The possibility to which I had never given any importance!
As I woke up this morning, the throbbing pain was there still
Another day I loose , another chance to see you smile
Are these our final exchanges for this lifetime?
I don't know if you will read this
Don't know if you will feel even if you came across this substandard expression of my thoughts
I have nothing else to do, no resources left
But to sit here and speculate about a black unfathomable future..
My fingers tremble while I type these words
The lights tend to dim
Devoured by a cold darkness in this heat
That utopia remains a distant dream..

Monday, May 7, 2012


You flew in the dead of the night
Into my room, under my blanket...into my life
Now when I wake up
I find I have changed
You have spoilt me for the comforts in life
The sweet candies and the violets

We walked miles side by side
Counting stars and orchids by the roadside
Who knew we you would take the freeway after all this time?
Was God laughing at my plans?

It will be before so long
You will start a new journey
Not a trace of a past existing
Not an exit for returning

Some one new will make you laugh
Will be on the receiving end of that intoxicating smile..
Some one new to hold you closely
Some one new to stand by your side

And the story would be the same for me
But there will be the same discs lying by my bedside
The same old songs will be running through my mind
Just rewinding every time..

Saturday, May 5, 2012

bhenge gechi...
here gechi..


Its dusk now...
The orange bids goodbye
But only for few hours
Only for the night
She knows she will return
Still she walks
Only to grace the same spot 
The very next day
How lucky the earth is!
He lets her go.. gives her the freedom
Yet she, Orange comes back again and again..

She soothes him after a night of horror
After a stormy cold night..
The earth shines once again
The oceans sparkle, the mountains glow 
There's warmth in those deep caves too..

An eternal love affair this is
Never to wither 
Never will it get destroyed

Come hail,come storm, come snow
Orange returns 
To live the moment
To drown in earth's love 
To remove the darkness

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Be Free

History repeats..
Like before it all ends up to nothing
like  before just a victim of sympathy, consolation
nothing lasts forever yet we hope against everything to survive
We  shall die everyone one by one
No one stays, is just a solo mission..

Every morsel of my memory dripping wet with dry fever
My hands shake , an unpleasant tremor
The promises of coffee spill over
Losing strength , grip, finally my voice

Its all black and cold
Am I dead?I ask myself.
Is this hell?The other-side?
I suddenly feel the piercing pain again
I can't be dead.Its a just a cold-dark room.

Why does it hurt? the throbbing pain beats like a hammer on steel..
I know you wont look back , a past you would rather
Hey,I know I was not your first kiss, neither the first friend.
Just the one who made you dwell in this cold dark room..

You see the light- a ray of hope,you move towards it
Running away from the suffocation
I try and stop you.My efforts fail.
How long will I cage a free bird?I ask myself again.
The answer comes swiftly- not any more.

I resign.I have failed.As a son. As a friend.Failed in all the roles I hoped I would succeed.
My failure.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

3 years called College

So the three years have gone by..
Only a memory now
Friendships,love, heart breaks
All was a part of it
Some failed expectations
Some conquered
A mixed bag it was..
Relieved I shall say
Yes that's what I feel
The pegs that drowned the ship of utopia
Never to resurface
The romance of the three years
Is all but a mirage....

Monday, January 30, 2012

You can kick me where it hurts
I wont wince
The same sweet spot - over and over
I wont even flinch
I am used to your savage claws
All over my body
Blood seeping from every pore
The pain has become the pleasure..